Still waiting for those perfect, pink lungs that will allow me to take my first full breath since birth. One year ago today, November 18th, 2016, changed my life in unimaginable ways. Fear of death became hope for new life. Depression was no longer a heavy albatross on my already curving shoulders. Dreams of growing older and sillier with my beloved, Steven, once again was a possibility. To know my daughters would have their mamacita to cheer them on, help pick them up, and revel in their life moments, grand or small. To travel to all baseball stadiums, following the Dodgers with my best friend and baseball guru, Steven. To register everyone as an organ donor that I could. To give back to my community, my family, my friends, my church as they have been so incredibly generous towards our family. My faith has grown exponentially as well. Trusting that God has the absolute perfect plan already in motion; I just need to Trust. And I do. And then I don’t. It is a roller coaster ride for sure, this waiting. I’m stronger emotionally, physically (a wee bit), and love just oozes all over the place (sorry for the Hallmark moment but hey, I could be dead and I’m not!). The importance of each precious moment is not wasted here, that’s for sure. So I will wait, and wait, and wait until..... Thank you for being on this journey with me. You can’t imagine the impact your love, prayers, phone and text messages, FB posts and many gifts encourage me, leaving me determined and so full of gratitude. God bless you my friends. #gratitudeforthegiftofanotherday #takenothingforgranted #lovetheoneyou’rewith #countyourblessings
Oct 23, 2017
Just because I'm on the bilateral lung transplant list at UCSF doesn't mean I can't have fun and go to a World Series game to cheer on my boys in blue, the LA Dodgers. Live life the best you can no matter the challenges....I've never had so much fun as I am waiting for my new lungs
Oct 11, 2017
I finally made it to a Dodger game this season. Not just any game mind you. The first postseason game with the Diamondbacks. A gift from another huge baseball fan. Just WOW! At my insistence, my...
Aug 16, 2017
It's been nine months since I was first listed at UCSF for a double lung transplant. Initially, I was preparing myself by packing a suitcase in anticipation of 'the call'; finally getting a Trust...
Jul 21, 2017
With smoke lingering in the air from several fires in central CA, Steve taking a tour up to the Sequoias, I find myself braving it all and driving solo to Pulmonary Rehab in Visalia, 35 miles from...